The wife is feeling much better. We got out this past Sunday to go and have lunch with friends and to catch a movie. I don’t even remember the name of the movie though.

What is important is that my wife if feel better and better. She is starting to remind me of her old self again which is great. Just a happy chipper person. She even started to jam out to some music in the car, she hasn’t done that is quite sometime.

I feel that I did her an injustice by not getting her more help sooner. i felt that there was a better way of doing things. There still may be, but they are not as fast. Natural medications take time. Although I feel that they are much better for someone in the long run, it really doesn’t solve the problem fast enough in some cases.

I really didn’t like the idea of taking my wife to the hospital. I still don’t like the idea. I don’t like the idea of all of the medications that she is having to take to slow down her thyroid and the insulin for high blood sugar. There are somethings that you just can’t get around now matter how much you try.

Aver all I have been thankful for the doctors. They did what they were supposed to do. I don’t really have any complaints I don’t guess. I do hope that if she has to take medication for the rest of her life that she doesn’t have to have an operation on her thyroid. I think that she would rather have a hyper than a hypo thyroid any day. I can’t say for sure of that.

I do know that I will listen more to my wife about herself than I have in the past. I feel mostly response able for her condition. Well not the condition, but the time it took to get something done about it. I feel that if I had not talked about getting help though natural means that she would have went to the doctor sooner.

It also helps to have insurance. That I also feel is mostly my fault. I should have a job where I can afford the insurance and have a better benefits package. That would have made it less hurtful in the short and long term. I feel that if the insurance had been there she would have went sooner. I don’t feel that she would have gotten the problem fixed the way she did if she had gone to a regular doctor though.

The main thing is that she is getting better. I’m not going to dwell on the should haves, could haves, or anything else. What really matters is the now and the future. I don’t really think that she blames me. I was just trying to do what I thought was best. In the long term it may be the best thing, but in the short sprints it was killing her.

I just really wanted to let everyone know about her status considering I talked about her being in the hospital. I think life will be tougher in another area for us now. I’m just happy that my wife is doing better.

You know I really don’t understand people sometimes. They make things more difficult for themselves because they refuse to bend. Then you show them how to bend and they are ok with it. I will never understand this. I guess I’m that way as well about somethings.

I’m sure by now you are wondering what in the world I’m talking about. Well…

I’m talking about that fact that in computers people seem to blow things out of whack. A lady at work was having problems with her labels and the program that she uses to make them. Clickstrip. It is some proprietary software that only prints labels and only on a certain type of label paper. This software also remembers what was the last label that you printed.

She wanted to have 2 of them so depending on what label she was using she would have different formats. It is hard to explain because she was using spaces in the last name field so that she would be able to get the label the way she wanted it even though the label template was not made for that sort of thing.

The simple way to do it to keep the format is just create a txt file with the format in it. Save that out and copy paste it in when you would like to use it. It is really that simple. Sure it is a couple more steps, but it stops the double install of software. Software that the users really only know how to use one way.

I made it to week 20 of Amie Street Music Wednesday. I was out browsing Amie Street and wanted to look for someone that sounded like Poe. I don’t know if any one knows who Poe is, but you can follow the link and take a look.

What I found was some ambience style music that has Poe in it. The name of the project is Conjure One. I called it a project because that is what Rhys calls it. He appears to have had many projects in the past. He even has some gold and platinum albums from all over the world. His music is really great. I love it with the vocals, even more so with Poe.

I think that Conjure One and Poe make a great team. There are other vocals on some of the other songs, but I just like Poe. She has a great voice. The song that got me into listening to Conjure One is Center of the Sun. This is a great song and well worth a listen. Really both albums on Amie Street are worth a listen.

I hope that todays selection brings your mind to a still. Slows you down and helps to relax you. As for me I feel so relaxed right now, I think that I will go to bed.

It is really strange being back at work after the past week. I had roamed the halls of the hospital for so long it seemed. You know 18+ hours a day in one place starts to seem normal after a while.

Being back at work, with the yellow walls, and the brownish trim drives me crazy. I don’t really know how to describe it. It is a lot like going camping for a few days and then having to return to the town. It makes you really miss the change that was for such a brief time.

I don’t much like the colors of the office. They are bland and not really anything to look at. They don’t really keep you awake. If anything they make you depressed and feel trapped. I don’t know of anyone that likes to feel that way. The carpet in the place is even yellow and brown. I’m not talking like a stained wood brown either. I’m talking like the brown that come out of the frozen yogurt machines. Getting the picture?

Well I have been steering at these yellow walls for quite some time, almost 4 years now. I don’t think much will change in the future with the wife being sick and all now. I can’t afford the hospital bills much less the treatment. Guess I will have to get a second job sometime soon to help off set the cost of everything. Just have to put up with these boring walls.

On Wednesday when I got home from work my wife was feeling no better. She also couldn’t eat and she was really starting to get sick. We don’t have insurance so I did the only thing that was let to do and that was to take her the the ER. I really think that if I had not said something she would have. In fact she told me that she was under 100 lbs., and I really think that was the straw so to speak.

They rushed her back into the ER. Her heart rate was 147 beats per minute. They said that was extremely high for being in a rest state. After some time in the ER they admitted her and sent her to ICU. That is where I spent the night.

Later on the next day a Dr. came in and told us about her thyroid and diabetes. They said that she had an enlarged thyroid. It was producing to many hormones and that it was causing her elevated heart rate. So they proceeded to give her thyroid medication to lower the production of TCH, as well as a steroid to slow her heart rate and insulin for the high blood sugar. Let it also be known that the steroid for the heart produced high blood sugar as well.

She spent the day getting test done and getting needled. Later that day we find out that she has a growth on her thyroid and that to be able to run the test for cancer she will have to come off of the medication for 1 week or have a biopsy done. We have chosen to go with the biopsy.

She was also moved to a simi-privet room, to which they would not let me spend the night with her in the room. I slept down stairs in the surgical waiting room on a bench. I would say one of the worst nights of sleep that I have ever gotten.

That night they told her that her heart acted up and they needed to run some more test. The theory was that the excessive heart rate could have caused damage to her heart. After a cardiogram and some more blood the results came back negative. This was such a relief.

She got released on Saturday around 8pm. I have a lot of running around to do today when I wake up. I have to get all of the prescriptions filled. I have to run around to several places to find the cheapest medications I can. The hospital is going to pay for about 2 weeks worth of insulin. I think the medication for the thyroid can be gotten at Wal-mart on the $4 plan. I don’t know about any of the other medications though. I think some of it will be a potassium and magnesium pill, these were also deficient.

All in all I’m happy that we know more about why she was loosing so much weight. I am really not looking forward to the bill. We don’t have insurance. Oh well. At least the wife is on the road to recovery.