I have not posted in a while.  I have been trying to learn Linux.  While I have discovered that I do enjoy it I don’t know.  I stay so confused all of the time.  Life grabs by the nuts and just drags you around.  I watched a squirl the other day outside while i was smoking.  It was just so peaceful.  Life is busy even outside of work.  You just wish you could slow eveything down to a medium pace.  I do how ever enjoy driving fast.  I would like to recomend a site/vlog if you are not aware of it yet.  Bicycle-Sidewalk Nathan’s site is simple.  You can learn a lot about Japan and some of the awsome beauty that it has.  I keep saying that I want this site to be great like that.  I don’t know where to start though.  I don’t have time.

I bought a SOE(Sony online Entertainment) game card so that I could play EQ some more but I don’t really care to play.  It just doesn’t give me joy anymore.  Hell most games that I play don’t give me joy, I just play them because I feel I don’t have anything else to do.

I am getting married in a few more months.  Syd is about the only joy that I have right now.  I work from 730 to 530 + time spent on the phone at night and on weekends.  I don’t feel like going anywhere when I get home.  I’m so drained from the day.  I expect to much out of people is my real problem, and I give so much of myself because of that.  I don’t like letting down people.

I love my Sydney.  She is great.  Sometimes I think that she is a 12 year old trapped in a 20 year old body.  She like to jump on the bed.  Be loud, at times, always cheerful though.  She enjoys wiggling.  She beleives that Jell-O should have picked her for their comercials.  Syd has B I G HUGE eyes.  Gourgus … simply put.  I love her and I’m glad she said yes.

I’m sure there is more to right.  Right now I should be in bed because she is not here and I need to get myself up in the morning and go to work.  I think that I am going to regret buying that gamer card.  I just don’t think that I should be playing.